Sugar

Sugar
I don't particularly like sugar
It's not that it doesn't taste good
Because lord knows that it does
But people forget something
Sugar and dopamine aren't the same thing
I know it tastes good
But where's the feeling good?
People eat sugar when they're happy
Sugar when they're sad
When they're down
When they're up
It's like tiny wings
And your thumb
Thumb for up
Thumb for down
Thumb even when your joint
Hurts
All you want is the streak
Enough of the graceful lows
And all the sudden you're flying sugar
Highly addictive - an obsession
The sugar obsession 
Is because it makes them feel
Sugar makes you feel
And I can't feel
So why
Would I want to eat that sugar
That's going to make me 
feel ill
Feel gross and glutinous and 
Globbering and gahhhh!!!
So...what's my sugar?
Everyone needs sugar
Without it you're confused
You can't think
Can't walk
Can't talk
Things stop. Making sense
My sugar is the real sweet stuff
You could call it slightly
Cannibalistic
Or you could call it
Vampiric
Or you could call it
The obvvvviously better of
The two options for
The first of four on
The Meyers Briggs
They're really the same
Your dopamine just happens to come from
Consuming something that's abundant 
7 billion times over
The other beings blessed (?) 
With walking around this 
Giant, giant bakery
Replete with the pastry chefs in white hats
Glazed, sugared bread lining white shelves
With clear glass coverings to block the
Urge we all have
To stick out our hands
Grab the sweets
Oh, they taste so damned good
So see
I get my sugar in a secondary way
Most people eat sugar
I eat people
And when they're not around
I get hungry
But the problem is that now I have a diet
And nothing will satiate it
Except for the 
Dopaminergic human
Who rings the bell when she walks into the 
Bakery. Who smells the sugary air
Whose pupils dilate
Who's overwhelmed by the choices
Who experiences
Who feels
Something maybe like elation
That's my sugar
And now I'm trying to 
Cook for myself
And it's not working